Don't distance yourself from God
We all come short of the glory of God. What matters is how we handle our short comings. Judas and Peter both betrayed Jesus. How they differed was that when Judas was overcome with grief, he took matters into his own hands, Peter repented before the Lord.
Do not distance yourself from God when you need him the most. You should invite Him in. You need patience and you should include Him in everything you do.
Luke 24:46-48 reads, "46 He told them, "This is what is written: The Christ will suffer and rise from the dead on the third day, 47 and repentance and forgiveness of sins will be preached in his name to all nations, beginning at Jerusalem. 48 You are witnesses of these things."